Bill Walton.
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Considering the network of people we have on this site, I would like to have a conversation about possible routes to take in life to ensure a job. I went to Akron for a couple years and kinda fell into the bad habit of skipping class. The freedom was probably too much for me, but at the same time I've taken classes more recently with no distractions, but still fell into the bad habit. I'm currently enrolled, doing alright in my classes but a few of them I haven't been to in weeks. I'm no dummy, I just tend to kinda lose focus and fall back into bad patterns.
I also have been diagnosed with major depression. Seen so many doctors etc. to try to "fix" me, but the same things keep happening and after a while I think it's finally time to admit that college may not be for me. Luckily for me, I come from a very supportive family who has paid for my college tuition, so college loans and other problems many of you deal with I don't. Sometimes I know I how lucky am I and truly feel like shit for destroying opportunities others would kill for. This past semester I tried to pay for my classes on my own from money I saved. I was hoping that this could possibly motivate me to remain interested in my classes. Halfway through the semester I haven't gone to many of my classes and am barely surviving in others. For some reason, these stupid letter grades don't motivate me.
On the flip side, when I work, I work hard. I earn money, work harder than many others and try to show my worth at work. I pick up extra shifts, make good tips, and really do a great job with customers. the money motivates me. I sit back and see people I know, friends, finding jobs and making 30,000 a year or 50,000, out of college. I look at these people and know I am just as smart as them, just as social, and sometimes more professional. This sometimes hits me hard and really makes me pissed off. It all comes back to how I constantly mess up my situation. Here I am 24 and still not close to a degree, sitting at my parents house, answering the same questions. The situation has become exhausting. I sometimes wish I could just rewind my life and do things the right way, but I can't. I think if I work hard for the next 2 years maybe I can finally graduate. But then reality kicks in and I'm halfway through the semester looking to drop classes. Most of the time I just push them aside and take the F.
I'm sick of it. I'm ready to give up and just go for a job without college. Last year I applied for a job in a union, working as an apprentice, in hopes of getting a job. I made it through a mechanical test, through the interview process, but then was told I didn't make it this year and too apply again next year. That would probably come up again in a few months, so I'll likely go this route again. Basically I'm using this thread to look into some members who have gone down this road. Especially someone who have been successful without college. It's just been really tough on me mentally as of late and i think hearing other people's success could help motivate me. Any suggestions are welcomed. I'm normally more of a joker on here, but this is something I could really use. I'm pretty simple, I'm not looking for 100 thousand a year, I just want a normal life with a normal family. I just want to be like everyone else and to be able to stop answering the same damn questions.
I also have been diagnosed with major depression. Seen so many doctors etc. to try to "fix" me, but the same things keep happening and after a while I think it's finally time to admit that college may not be for me. Luckily for me, I come from a very supportive family who has paid for my college tuition, so college loans and other problems many of you deal with I don't. Sometimes I know I how lucky am I and truly feel like shit for destroying opportunities others would kill for. This past semester I tried to pay for my classes on my own from money I saved. I was hoping that this could possibly motivate me to remain interested in my classes. Halfway through the semester I haven't gone to many of my classes and am barely surviving in others. For some reason, these stupid letter grades don't motivate me.
On the flip side, when I work, I work hard. I earn money, work harder than many others and try to show my worth at work. I pick up extra shifts, make good tips, and really do a great job with customers. the money motivates me. I sit back and see people I know, friends, finding jobs and making 30,000 a year or 50,000, out of college. I look at these people and know I am just as smart as them, just as social, and sometimes more professional. This sometimes hits me hard and really makes me pissed off. It all comes back to how I constantly mess up my situation. Here I am 24 and still not close to a degree, sitting at my parents house, answering the same questions. The situation has become exhausting. I sometimes wish I could just rewind my life and do things the right way, but I can't. I think if I work hard for the next 2 years maybe I can finally graduate. But then reality kicks in and I'm halfway through the semester looking to drop classes. Most of the time I just push them aside and take the F.
I'm sick of it. I'm ready to give up and just go for a job without college. Last year I applied for a job in a union, working as an apprentice, in hopes of getting a job. I made it through a mechanical test, through the interview process, but then was told I didn't make it this year and too apply again next year. That would probably come up again in a few months, so I'll likely go this route again. Basically I'm using this thread to look into some members who have gone down this road. Especially someone who have been successful without college. It's just been really tough on me mentally as of late and i think hearing other people's success could help motivate me. Any suggestions are welcomed. I'm normally more of a joker on here, but this is something I could really use. I'm pretty simple, I'm not looking for 100 thousand a year, I just want a normal life with a normal family. I just want to be like everyone else and to be able to stop answering the same damn questions.