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David that sounds great and I hope you keep it up. Getting high on life sounds like a stupid slogan but it actually works.

The gym is an awesome outlet for tension, and a great substitute for Addictive Behavior.

That's the goal


As jig pointed out earlier, addiction is a symptom of bigger issues. Studies say naturally, you can release more dopamine naturally than would a line or hit
 
Went to a meeting.

Some people were obviously not doing well with recovery.. I wanted to tell half the people there it's more than just not using and coming to meetings..

I feel like on the baseline their just dealing with the symptoms of the bigger problem, and the bigger problem is they're miserAble people and just taking away something from them without replacing it (credit the Leftovers) is a recipe for disaster.

That doc I mentioned pages back says happiness is derived from constant social interaction and relationships, being physically active, helping others (my next step) and always trying new stuff.

The meeting was generally good because it touches on almost all of those, and more specifically when people get up, there may be a sound byte level quote from each person that you hold on with you and keep in your thought process.

A couple good ones: if you have one foot on yesterday and one on tomorrow, you shit all over today.

The biggest problem someone found is that they were still a shitty person even when they put the drugs down, and they weren't expecting that.

I've got to deal with anger better. That's my biggest issue and it's been tested a lot this last week
 
Went to a meeting.

Some people were obviously not doing well with recovery.. I wanted to tell half the people there it's more than just not using and coming to meetings..

I feel like on the baseline their just dealing with the symptoms of the bigger problem, and the bigger problem is they're miserAble people and just taking away something from them without replacing it (credit the Leftovers) is a recipe for disaster.

That doc I mentioned pages back says happiness is derived from constant social interaction and relationships, being physically active, helping others (my next step) and always trying new stuff.

The meeting was generally good because it touches on almost all of those, and more specifically when people get up, there may be a sound byte level quote from each person that you hold on with you and keep in your thought process.

A couple good ones: if you have one foot on yesterday and one on tomorrow, you shit all over today.

The biggest problem someone found is that they were still a shitty person even when they put the drugs down, and they weren't expecting that.

I've got to deal with anger better. That's my biggest issue and it's been tested a lot this last week
Just remember that life is ultimately meaningless and this should help out!
 
Went to a meeting.

Some people were obviously not doing well with recovery.. I wanted to tell half the people there it's more than just not using and coming to meetings..

I feel like on the baseline their just dealing with the symptoms of the bigger problem, and the bigger problem is they're miserAble people and just taking away something from them without replacing it (credit the Leftovers) is a recipe for disaster.

That doc I mentioned pages back says happiness is derived from constant social interaction and relationships, being physically active, helping others (my next step) and always trying new stuff.

The meeting was generally good because it touches on almost all of those, and more specifically when people get up, there may be a sound byte level quote from each person that you hold on with you and keep in your thought process.

A couple good ones: if you have one foot on yesterday and one on tomorrow, you shit all over today.

The biggest problem someone found is that they were still a shitty person even when they put the drugs down, and they weren't expecting that.

I've got to deal with anger better. That's my biggest issue and it's been tested a lot this last week
An addiction counsellor once told me people drink because they like who they are drunk more than who they are sober and people use because they are trying to hide from themselves. It seems an oversimplification but would explain opiate use. Glad the meeting was helpful. I talk to a lot of people who claim their depressed but when we discuss their situation it is legitimately shit and so they have every right to feel down.

Anger is a rough one to deal with. Good luck I hope you find your triggers and gain some clarity
 
An addiction counsellor once told me people drink because they like who they are drunk more than who they are sober and people use because they are trying to hide from themselves. It seems an oversimplification but would explain opiate use. Glad the meeting was helpful. I talk to a lot of people who claim their depressed but when we discuss their situation it is legitimately shit and so they have every right to feel down.

Anger is a rough one to deal with. Good luck I hope you find your triggers and gain some clarity
Yep.. The alcohol abuse is a symptom of the bigger issue. But drinking only ruins their lives more.

It's the message in requiem for a dream. If they could deal with their addiction (mom:tv, etc) they could lead decent loves.

Unfortunately, my life's over. Still clean but I hadn't kicked all the bad things I did in time. Screwed up and it cost me everything.

I'm worried about today. I'm more worried about tomorrow.
 
Yep.. The alcohol abuse is a symptom of the bigger issue. But drinking only ruins their lives more.

It's the message in requiem for a dream. If they could deal with their addiction (mom:tv, etc) they could lead decent loves.

Unfortunately, my life's over. Still clean but I hadn't kicked all the bad things I did in time. Screwed up and it cost me everything.

I'm worried about today. I'm more worried about tomorrow.
Dude stay strong. Focus on the next step (but not necessarily the 12 steps)
 
Dude stay strong. Focus on the next step (but not necessarily the 12 steps)
Bigger than that. I'm done. Career over, one class from the finish line.
 
Maybe another time.

As of right now I'm pushing through and have taken a proper amount of medication and am still dedicated.

Can't change the past, trying not to look to tomorrow. Will see what I can do about it Monday.
 
Yep.. The alcohol abuse is a symptom of the bigger issue. But drinking only ruins their lives more.

It's the message in requiem for a dream. If they could deal with their addiction (mom:tv, etc) they could lead decent loves.

Unfortunately, my life's over. Still clean but I hadn't kicked all the bad things I did in time. Screwed up and it cost me everything.

I'm worried about today. I'm more worried about tomorrow.

Fuck that!

You're what? Late 20's early 30's?

Career Over? Find another one.

What about a change of scenery? Like a opposite side of the country/other state?

I'm not all that familiar with addiction or your situation, but this idea that your life is over and things will only get worse is ridiculous. Tough times don't last, tough people do.

One of my college teammates has an older brother that was on a similar path as you. He played college football and blew out his knee right before the last game of his freshman year. He became very angry, stopped going to class, lost his scholarship, friends/girlfriend and got kicked out of school. He moved home and turned to alcohol, he did this for about 5-6 years before he was finally given the ultimatum to stop drinking or he would be kicked out of his parents home. This was an "Intervention" type situation. He was able to slow down the drinking through counseling/rehab, but the anger was something that owned him. He was pissed about what life could have been and was living with his parents and staying in bed or the couch all day. One day my buddy and some of the people that he was still in contact with took him camping (something he loved to do). They spent most of the weekend having a good time, before telling him that it was time to get his life back on track and this time something clicked. He had been living at his parents house for a decade and hadn't worked in over 3 years. As I mentioned, he loved camping. They told him to do what he loves. He ended up applying to some entry level job at Yosemite making next to nothing, but he was provided a room and meals. He loved it and started working his way up. He has been out there for close to 10 years, he went back to school and ended up getting a Masters degree as well. He just had his 2nd child at the age of 41 and has a beautiful wife.

I don't know if this story relates to you or not, it doesn't matter. This is a guy that spent 10 years doing nothing but drinking and working odd jobs here and there. He got help for his drinking/anger and has turned his life around. It's not impossible. If you would have known him at 22, you would have thought he would either be in jail or dead by the time he's 30.

You can still do this.
 
big fail.

my dads flying down from oregon today.


this is just tragic.
 

Took too much last night. So we count that as a fuck up on top of the previous fuck up. I'm just low right now and stressed.

There is a sliver of hope, but.. It's a sliver, that I'll be able to work in my field. Something happened non drug related, but gigantic, and I fell off. And anxious me is worried that I'm now stuck with the job that requires I take drugs, forever. That's just hell.

My own fault. I was working hard on things but there was a lot to work on, and an issue I wasnt focusing on just took everything back down to ground level.

Fuck being cryptic, legal issues. Open and shut case. Something I did out of habit for years. Was two months away from getting offprobation of four years, which I should have gotten terminated early but I wad a lazy fuck ass and didn't get my shit in order when I should have.

So now I have to pray I can expedite expungement on the five year old case which takes sixty days, and then push this thing out as far as possible, and pray the court system doesn't communicate the cases to itself.

If it doesn't, then the new thing will look like my first offense, and will be expunged and I'll have a clean record. If that doesn't happen, I don't know what to do.
 
I'm gong to be ok. Career is safe. I took too much last night, but I'm not really worried.

Foundation is still solid. I have anther issue to work on, but the others have good momentum and I'll be ok.

Now to the bored thread, because taking too much Adderal means I let loose on the anger
 

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