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I'm gong to be ok. Career is safe. I took too much last night, but I'm not really worried.

Foundation is still solid. I have anther issue to work on, but the others have good momentum and I'll be ok.

Now to the bored thread, because taking too much Adderal means I let loose on the anger

Honestly, unfuck yourself and quit making excuses about how/why you can't.
 
Honestly, unfuck yourself and quit making excuses about how/why you can't.
Ok I'll get in a time machine and undo it. Or I'll beat myself up about the fact that I did instead of being positive.

There weren't excuses. I owned up and admitted I messed up.



Update: it's a rough day.
 
Ok I'll get in a time machine and undo it. Or I'll beat myself up about the fact that I did instead of being positive.

There weren't excuses. I owned up and admitted I messed up.



Update: it's a rough day.


Hang in there dude. For all the shit we may give you, we all actually care. Well, except for @The Oi, but he's defective anyway.

You made it through boot camp, right? Be that guy again.
 
I love you all.

One of my best friends from high school just died via heroin overdose. It doesn't even seem real. I feel like Im in one of those fucking movie trances where everything is fake.

What a nightmare.
 
Maybe I'm wrong, but I think I'm pretty much.. Done. Idk.

I think my career is over, I have student loans I'll never be able to pay back subsequently, ava I'll probably see a month of time.

Anything I do seems pointless.

Why finish these last two classes? Why go to the gym? Yo look pretty fur jail? Why date when I'm going away?

I'm dying for a escape. Now I want to get high. Get away from this temporarily at least.
 
Maybe I'm wrong, but I think I'm pretty much.. Done. Idk.

I think my career is over, I have student loans I'll never be able to pay back subsequently, ava I'll probably see a month of time.

Anything I do seems pointless.

Why finish these last two classes? Why go to the gym? Yo look pretty fur jail? Why date when I'm going away?

I'm dying for a escape. Now I want to get high. Get away from this temporarily at least.

Pretty much how I feel.

Don't give in though. You're too good of a dude.

Keep talking here if you need to. I'm sure I'll be up all night posting.
 
Pretty much how I feel.

Don't give in though. You're too good of a dude.

Keep talking here if you need to. I'm sure I'll be up all night posting.


I'm not. Ive felt so fucking sick inside for years, and I coped by being mean, aggressive and isolated, and high.and I finally fixed a lot of that shit and I wad still a shitty person. It wasn't enough.

I got a month where I liked waking up. I liked living. I truly liked myself and what I was becoming. And it's gone. I am useless until I go to prison which could be a year from now.

I just want a fucking family. A little boy I can teach life to. A girl who won't cheat on me, and that I'll have feelings for. just want to be happy. I was on my way. I'm fucking glued to the couch again, I can't move, just depressed and defeated.

Everyone is backing away from me again because they know I'm fucked and don't have any answers, and don't want to be depressed.
 
I'm scared to study because Adderal. I'm scared to work because Adderal. I'm stuck with this fucking job for the rest of my life.

I want out of this shit.
 
I'm not. Ive felt so fucking sick inside for years, and I coped by being mean, aggressive and isolated, and high.and I finally fixed a lot of that shit and I wad still a shitty person. It wasn't enough.

I got a month where I liked waking up. I liked living. I truly liked myself and what I was becoming. And it's gone. I am useless until I go to prison which could be a year from now.

I just want a fucking family. A little boy I can teach life to. A girl who won't cheat on me, and that I'll have feelings for. just want to be happy. I was on my way. I'm fucking glued to the couch again, I can't move, just depressed and defeated.

Everyone is backing away from me again because they know I'm fucked and don't have any answers, and don't want to be depressed.

I dont know what to tell you. But I feel you man. I totally feel you. Please just dont give in. Do it for me. Do it for my buddy. I'm not good at this. Just get your shit together. Please. :/
 
Why don't you two meet up in Nebraska and fuck?

Could that help?!!!


@Deezus
 
Maybe I'm wrong, but I think I'm pretty much.. Done. Idk.

I think my career is over, I have student loans I'll never be able to pay back subsequently, ava I'll probably see a month of time.

Anything I do seems pointless.

Why finish these last two classes? Why go to the gym? Yo look pretty fur jail? Why date when I'm going away?

I'm dying for a escape. Now I want to get high. Get away from this temporarily at least.
I have a family member who is dealing with overcoming drug addiction. It is a life long battle for sure. Dave, what about trying to find something funny to watch online to take your mind off things. Just try not to put too much on your plate mentally. Find a few laughs and give yourself a mental break
 
Nebraska is exactly 1200 miles from each city, to be fair

Right?

If you guys agree to 69 on camera without cumming for 10 hours straight wearing Donald Trump and Hillary Clinton costumes, I bet RCF would pony up for the tickets and for the dick cream afterwards.

So long as you guys upload and TLDR'd us to the best parts of the video.

@Deezus @bushwick_bill @Hydroponic3385
 
Maybe I'm wrong, but I think I'm pretty much.. Done. Idk.

I think my career is over, I have student loans I'll never be able to pay back subsequently, ava I'll probably see a month of time.

Anything I do seems pointless.

Why finish these last two classes? Why go to the gym? Yo look pretty fur jail? Why date when I'm going away?

I'm dying for a escape. Now I want to get high. Get away from this temporarily at least.
I guess I missed it, but what are you going away for and for how long?

As far as being blacklisted from a career? Fuck it. Dave are you really that enamored with accounting that you can't picture your life without it? I have worked nonstop for the last 6 years just to make it to a credentialed actuary and now that I'm here I think I want to switch careers because it's not for me. It happens. I could very easily live the rest of my life as an actuary, make a very comfy living, retire before 55, and that be that. I've made a lot of connections in the field and there are things I like about it, and hell I might go back to it, but it's just a line of work man. If you're a clever (notice how I didn't say smart, I don't give two shits how book smart someone is if they can't be clever in their solutions) hardworking guy you're an asset wherever you go. I think too often people marry themselves to one career. Fuck that. Explore shit. If accounting is out for whatever reason then what's your next interest? I promise you it doesn't have to relate to your degree if that's what you're worried about.

Don't worry about the student loans right now. You've got enough on your plate don't add another thing to the stress fire that you can't control until you find what you want to be doing anyway.

Go to the gym because you like to work out.

Finish the classes now because you're so God damned close there's no reason not to and then worry later if they mattered or not

Don't date until you have Dave figured out. Trust me trying to have a girlfriend play counselor and fill the void of you not loving yourself with her loving you doesn't work. I've tried that. It just hurts both people.

If you need an escape, escape. I've felt that way. Bought a plane ticket to Austin. Visited a friend from school. Things got too hard for me. I needed to get away. I got away for a weekend. If you need longer than that adjust as needed. But fuck it man. Life's way too short to feel trapped. Go do something fun. And if you're tight on cash mega bus. Or just fucking drive. And chill. Relax.
 
I guess I missed it, but what are you going away for and for how long?

As far as being blacklisted from a career? Fuck it. Dave are you really that enamored with accounting that you can't picture your life without it? I have worked nonstop for the last 6 years just to make it to a credentialed actuary and now that I'm here I think I want to switch careers because it's not for me. It happens. I could very easily live the rest of my life as an actuary, make a very comfy living, retire before 55, and that be that. I've made a lot of connections in the field and there are things I like about it, and hell I might go back to it, but it's just a line of work man. If you're a clever (notice how I didn't say smart, I don't give two shits how book smart someone is if they can't be clever in their solutions) hardworking guy you're an asset wherever you go. I think too often people marry themselves to one career. Fuck that. Explore shit. If accounting is out for whatever reason then what's your next interest? I promise you it doesn't have to relate to your degree if that's what you're worried about.

Don't worry about the student loans right now. You've got enough on your plate don't add another thing to the stress fire that you can't control until you find what you want to be doing anyway.

Go to the gym because you like to work out.

Finish the classes now because you're so God damned close there's no reason not to and then worry later if they mattered or not

Don't date until you have Dave figured out. Trust me trying to have a girlfriend play counselor and fill the void of you not loving yourself with her loving you doesn't work. I've tried that. It just hurts both people.

If you need an escape, escape. I've felt that way. Bought a plane ticket to Austin. Visited a friend from school. Things got too hard for me. I needed to get away. I got away for a weekend. If you need longer than that adjust as needed. But fuck it man. Life's way too short to feel trapped. Go do something fun. And if you're tight on cash mega bus. Or just fucking drive. And chill. Relax.
im done. i cant have any career dude. what job hires without a background check? none. ive ot an IQ three deviations from normal and im stuck at home fuckinh depot. i wil NEVER pay off my loans.im now a slave to money. no 70k, just 14$/hour. what the fuck. for my whole life. i will never be allowed in the financial industry.

im fucking fine with that. the worst part is jail. i think 1.5 months, up to 6. i would eventually figure something out financially, maybe. but fuck if that wasnt the easiest, by far, option. im fucked.

no medication. I cannot sleep without meds. im attractive, im going to be messed with. i will have FUCK all to do all day.my dog..? im add and im stuck in a fucking cell. wasting away.

I FUCKINg QUALIFIED FOR EARLY TERMINATION OF PROBATION OVER A FUCKINg YEAR AgO. WTF IS WRONg W ME?

my ESCAPES are not visiting a nice place and enjoying. i am glued to the fucking couch now. ESCAPES are sex addiction and drugs. and im stuck in this reality for a long fucking time, its just hanging over my head. like an anvil, and I cant move.

i just escaped and now im panicking because now tat my dick isnt hard i realized what i just did. and its really bad, and Im literally always at risk. always. for looks like.. the next year now.
 

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