Brought him home Friday. Tuesday evening he started feeling like he was having another seizure. So I took him to the ER, they upped his seizure meds, sent him home. Felt really good yesterday, was animated, active, out talking to the neighbors etc. His left leg got a little sore, figured he overdid it. He woke up around 1:30am and it was hurting worse, so we went to the ER again. Gave him pain meds, sent him home to have an ultrasound at 6:30am. Go to the ultrasound, they find some old blockage in the artery of his leg. I have to run home to take care of my daughter because the fiancee had to be at work at 8. So about 7:45, dad calls that he's being released to come get him. When I get there, he complains that his left foot is completely numb. They did another quick ultrasound, there was still bloodflow, and sent him home again. Called the VA doctor, she said to get him back to the ER that he should've never been released. I took him over around 10am. I had to bring my daughter back home to get her fed, changed etc because I left without her diaper bag in a rush. I mean, he hasn't even had a chance to see his oncologist to start chemo. It is scheduled for this Friday. This is just such a rapid deterioration.
At this point, I hate to say this, but I almost hope they keep him in care. I'm going on 2 hours of sleep since yesterday, and I'm just beyond emotionally and physically exhausted. Bills are piling up, gonna have to default on all my debts because I haven't found work yet. My world is just crumbling around me. I don't even know how I'm going to pay rent this month. It feels like I'm falling apart at the seams.