Please vent, do not take your life. We're always here to listen. Keep strong
I thought about jumping every 5 minutes this week. I'm in such physical pain that dying i s the only thing that makes me excited about.
Didn't do it because I'm handicapped at the moment and the building I live in isn't high enough.
My personal story is so long and id love to write about it, but the pain levels that i'm in and the fact that i'm writing with my left hand makes it very uncomfortable. I had a comprehensive shoulder surgery a month ago after I reached a point where I couldnt use my hand and the repair failed.. this would probably not be such a huge problem by itself, but dealing with that and a host of other big issues make it seem like a neverending event. I have to operate on the other side too, but with my mental health and other physical problems make it seem unrealstic.
I should just accept it and be sedentary for the rest of my life at 27? can't even be sedentary because of my back pain
I was in a car crash and suffered numerous injuries and been on ADs for a long time. I have been sleep deprived for years now and my dick is dead. Been off medication for 1.5 years and it still hasn't returned.
Even if I somehow regain normal use of my shoulders, my back and neck are fucked, I have no education, cant maintain a job,no motivation for a better future, nothing gets me excited and I have no idea who I am anymore. The things I was once good at such as sports, being handy, having good social skills are a thing of the past. My good looks are starting to fade because of health and self neglect and it seems obvious that once my face is gone, my 0 charisma and drive will get me nowhere.
I need to reinvent myself but i'm incapable of doing so.
I missed out on so much in life since the age of 17 and I have nothing to look for.
Mr.Orange, my biggest problem is that I have both physical problems and mental problems. I can hardly beat one, so both?
I was hanging on to life because of the Cavs and even that is starting to wear off.. you can partially thank Durant for that.
This is just a very small sum of my problem.
What a pity post.