Drug addiction/sobriety

[The Wizard of Moz]

im done. i cant have any career dude. what job hires without a background check? none. ive ot an IQ three deviations from normal and im stuck at home fuckinh depot. i wil NEVER pay off my loans.im now a slave to money. no 70k, just 14$/hour. what the fuck. for my whole life. i will never be allowed in the financial industry.

im fucking fine with that. the worst part is jail. i think 1.5 months, up to 6. i would eventually figure something out financially, maybe. but fuck if that wasnt the easiest, by far, option. im fucked.

no medication. I cannot sleep without meds. im attractive, im going to be messed with. i will have FUCK all to do all day.my dog..? im add and im stuck in a fucking cell. wasting away.

I FUCKINg QUALIFIED FOR EARLY TERMINATION OF PROBATION OVER A FUCKINg YEAR AgO. WTF IS WRONg W ME?

my ESCAPES are not visiting a nice place and enjoying. i am glued to the fucking couch now. ESCAPES are sex addiction and drugs. and im stuck in this reality for a long fucking time, its just hanging over my head. like an anvil, and I cant move.

i just escaped and now im panicking because now tat my dick isnt hard i realized what i just did. and its really bad, and Im literally always at risk. always. for looks like.. the next year now.

I absolutely refuse to believe you're 3 standard deviations from the average IQ for the sole fact that you know what a standard deviation is and that it can be used as a measure. And the stat based arguments you post on here. And the fact that you're 2 God damned classes from a degree

You aren't dumb. Or you've been paying someone who isn't dumb to post on this website for you

you aren't at Home Depot for your whole life man. I work in the financial industry. I work with people who have unclean background checks. some people I work with can't even use excel beyond the absolute bare minimum. I think you're thinking the grass is greener on the other side and all people who work in financial industry are geniuses who have crystal clear records. They aren't. I work at a Fortune 500 company btw so it's not like my company is an Anamoly.

Have you already been sentenced? What were you tried for?

I also don't believe that the only escape you have is drugs. It might be your most convenient escape in your head or the first one to come to mind, but there has to be something else you genuinely enjoy doing that can clear your mind

 

[David.]

I absolutely refuse to believe you're 3 standard deviations from the average IQ for the sole fact that you know what a standard deviation is and that it can be used as a measure. And the stat based arguments you post on here. And the fact that you're 2 God damned classes from a degree

You aren't dumb. Or you've been paying someone who isn't dumb to post on this website for you

you aren't at Home Depot for your whole life man. I work in the financial industry. I work with people who have unclean background checks. some people I work with can't even use excel beyond the absolute bare minimum. I think you're thinking the grass is greener on the other side and all people who work in financial industry are geniuses who have crystal clear records. They aren't. I work at a Fortune 500 company btw so it's not like my company is an Anamoly.

Have you already been sentenced? What were you tried for?

I also don't believe that the only escape you have is drugs. It might be your most convenient escape in your head or the first one to come to mind, but there has to be something else you genuinely enjoy doing that can clear your mind

Three higher than norm.

Wasted life.

You can trust dumb people who can't use excel. I can't be trusted.

I'll pm you

 

[Akron330]

What's the point in having this defeatist attitude? I don't want to sound like a prick, but why don't you stop complaining about your life and do something about it? You need to take a look at what you have, and not what you don't have.

I understand that your situation is tough, but people recover everyday from shit that would make your life look like a picnic.

You can have the life that you want if you're actually willing to make the changes/sacrifices necessary. Sitting around and feeling sorry for yourself isn't going to cut it. You've got way too much life to live to give up this early.

 

[David.]

What's the point in having this defeatist attitude? I don't want to sound like a prick, but why don't you stop complaining about your life and do something about it? You need to take a look at what you have, and not what you don't have.

I understand that your situation is tough, but people recover everyday from shit that would make your life look like a picnic.

You can have the life that you want if you're actually willing to make the changes/sacrifices necessary. Sitting around and feeling sorry for yourself isn't going to cut it. You've got way too much life to live to give up this early.

I'd love to hear any strategy that gets me out of jail.otherwise that's the reality.

No, I can't be an accountant with my record. Or much of anything.

"You can do anything if you put your mind to it" does not apply in certain situations.

 

[The Oi]

Wait, what?

When did the jail thing happen?

 

[David.]

Wait, what?

When did the jail thing happen?

Four pages ago. Lol. It's sparked falling off.

I meet with an attorney today, I got some good news and for the next three hours at least.

An unrelated paralegal said that I'd get more probation and community service.

Which is more than fine. Informal probation is horse shit. You don't meet with anyone to make sure you're still on track.

The next step in my personal plan wad community service. So fine.

I just hope she's right

 

[Lee]

Four pages ago. Lol. It's sparked falling off.

I meet with an attorney today, I got some good news and for the next three hours at least.

An unrelated paralegal said that I'd get more probation and community service.

Which is more than fine. Informal probation is horse shit. You don't meet with anyone to make sure you're still on track.

The next step in my personal plan wad community service. So fine.

I just hope she's right

If you do small time in jail it isnt that bad. My friend did 1.5 years and he was fine because he kept to himself.

You wont get sent to a hardcore prison if you are 3 months or less also, just a jail which is mainly drug and alcohol offenses.

That said, hoping for you no jail time.

 

[David.]

If you do small time in jail it isnt that bad. My friend did 1.5 years and he was fine because he kept to himself.

You wont get sent to a hardcore prison if you are 3 months or less also, just a jail which is mainly drug and alcohol offenses.

That said, hoping for you no jail time.

From what I understand is max at a month but apparently that's unlikely.

I don't do well isolated and being unproductive, at all. No one does, but this would be torture.

 

[David.]

Asked attorney how much time I'd see.

He says he doesn't see me doing any. Unlikely. And if I did, it'd be 15 days.

Last night's nightmare had me in prison for over a year

 

[Jordan]

Asked attorney how much time I'd see.

He says he doesn't see me doing any. Unlikely. And if I did, it'd be 15 days.

Last night's nightmare had me in prison for over a year

My boss - who has become a super successful academic and policymaker - did about two weeks in prison for "violent" government protesting and such stuff. He said it really was not bad whatsoever, and he met some cool people. Not sure if you want some of his funny stories, and I don't want to push anything, but if so I can post them or pm them to you.

 

[David.]

My boss - who has become a super successful academic and policymaker - did about two weeks in prison for "violent" government protesting and such stuff. He said it really was not bad whatsoever, and he met some cool people. Not sure if you want some of his funny stories, and I don't want to push anything, but if so I can post them or pm them to you.

I was going to make a "Dave goes to jail" thread later, which will be more light hearted and that would definitely be appropriate.

 

[Lee]

From what I understand is max at a month but apparently that's unlikely.

I don't do well isolated and being unproductive, at all. No one does, but this would be torture.

I did 3 days for a DUI 20 years ago. Its allot of talking to your cell mates at that level, not much to do, but i survived for sure.

The biggest issue would be to get you into a happy place. Find you a productive job, and make you feel good about yourself again. I know this thread is allot of self realization, but i wish i could help you more. I think you are at a turning point and you would be surprised at how well you can still make your life turn out.

PM me if you want to have a deeper conversation, i was highly unproductive in my 20;s and made some bad decisions, life has a tendency to turn around when you put yourself out there.

 

[David.]

I did 3 days for a DUI 20 years ago. Its allot of talking to your cell mates at that level, not much to do, but i survived for sure.

The biggest issue would be to get you into a happy place. Find you a productive job, and make you feel good about yourself again. I know this thread is allot of self realization, but i wish i could help you more. I think you are at a turning point and you would be surprised at how well you can still make your life turn out.

PM me if you want to have a deeper conversation, i was highly unproductive in my 20;s and made some bad decisions, life has a tendency to turn around when you put yourself out there.

Yea. Gonna pm you today.

Woke up at 3 and couldn't get back to sleep, could only think about how I just accrued this debt and a desk job is out of the question.

 

[Lee]

Yea. Gonna pm you today.

Woke up at 3 and couldn't get back to sleep, could only think about how I just accrued this debt and a desk job is out of the question.

Have you thought about a trade like plumber or electrician? Get in now as an intern, and make good money. You can then after established continue to work for someone or start your own company. Best of both worlds in my opinion.

Doing things with your hands will keep your mind occupied, and i think it is something you could flourish in. I think specific trades are very, very underrated and doing mortgages like i do, i know they make good money once established.

 

[David.]

Have you thought about a trade like plumber or electrician? Get in now as an intern, and make good money. You can then after established continue to work for someone or start your own company. Best of both worlds in my opinion.

Doing things with your hands will keep your mind occupied, and i think it is something you could flourish in. I think specific trades are very, very underrated and doing mortgages like i do, i know they make good money once established.

I'm pretty white collar. And I go nuts if I'm not challenged mentally.

Financial Consulting or auditing would have Just been..perfect.