Sir'Dom Pointer
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Psychologist told me today that I was fine cutting back work hours because its a bullshit job and I can be an accountant in a month, and that my life sucked when all I did was work.
I told him about the need for attention and he told me quit the btching, 4 dates in a month is great let alone a week. I asked if I should slow down and he's like fuck no man, love doesn't find you, get off your ass. "You're complaining now but you were a lot more miserable when you weren't trying."
He blamed me for not asking the right questions to make these people interesting. I told them that was their job, not mine.
I'm on lamotragine, which is a mood stabilizer. The mania and depression are both up, so. Fuck that. Just randomly get sad and impulses are flying around being acted upon.
Psychologists unfortunately never helped.. always seemed like a big waste of money.
They are helpful when you have tons of shit in your life that you need to sort out, or things that are stressful that you need to vent about and get a different perspective than your own. However, they can not help a man that is not functional, who is depressed and not the most verbal in therapy.. I mean, I can get repetitive in therapy and all they do is nod their damn head and offer no useful advice in how to counter the problem and find a solution.
Maybe because they think my what i'm complaining about is not the real problem? Anyways, I have always gotten more help out of holistic therapists that look at the mind and the body as a whole.
I have tried Lamotrigine, Abilify and Seroquel.. yes, all of them and I never needed any of them because I wasn't bipolar or any of that shit.
I was misdiagnosed for a few years.. thing is that I would always take the anti depressant(Cymbalta, for pain aswell) at night so I would get amped up at night, be hyperactive and have trouble sleeping, so the Doc asked me if I had mood swings and I told him about it so he offered these medications that I believe causes tons of long lasting harm to my system.
Don't ever take Seroquel.
Also, I was diagnosed with ADD at a very young age, so I would try to take Ritalin every now and then, but it would always cause me ill effects so I stopped completely for a looong time. A few days ago, after being off medication for a year and half, I have decided to try Ritalin once more and the effects were very much positive. My mood has been lifted, I became talkative and energetic.
I guess the interaction between the stabilizers, ADs and the Ritalin were problematic.. I guess having low testosterone depletes your Dopamine so a drug like Ritalin really helps in that case. Downfall is that it's only temporary and after it the effects wear off you feel like complete shit.