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Sir'Dom Pointer

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How are you doing lately?
Been hospitalized @ Neurology. peripheral weakness and a bunch of other shit. trying to figure out what is happening.

Been thinking about killing myself every damn day. Problem is that I physically can't.
 

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Been hospitalized @ Neurology. peripheral weakness and a bunch of other shit. trying to figure out what is happening.

Been thinking about killing myself every damn day. Problem is that I physically can't.
Please know that this made me cry a little. I only know you from the internet but do love you, so I can imagine the people in real life love you a whole bunch. I wish I could help you have the strength to get through this, but it will get better.
 

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Been hospitalized @ Neurology. peripheral weakness and a bunch of other shit. trying to figure out what is happening.

Been thinking about killing myself every damn day. Problem is that I physically can't.
You may have what I have. It is treatable.

There is always hope so long as you live.

And if you are in physical pain, demand they treat it, even if it means using some political incorrect, but efficacious, medication.
 

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Please know that this made me cry a little. I only know you from the internet but do love you, so I can imagine the people in real life love you a whole bunch. I wish I could help you have the strength to get through this, but it will get better.
Thank you Lee. Means alot.

I dunno. My life was a mess before it evolved into this shit. I have very little hope. I wish I at least had a good family to help me.

You may have what I have. It is treatable.

There is always hope so long as you live.

And if you are in physical pain, demand they treat it, even if it means using some political incorrect, but efficacious, medication.
What do you have if I may ask?

My physical pain is almost unbearable, but they stopped my pain medication because my liver has become an issue for some reason.
 

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My root chakra has been hurting amd growing warm. Can anyone help?
 

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You ever fuck around with any psychadelics Sir Dom? LSD, psilocybin mushrooms, etc.

I wouldn't recommend it to just anyone, but keep it in mind if things don't improve.

It's sort of a dry run for death. But at the same time, it can have immense healing powers. It's like turning off the governor on a golf cart to see how fast it can go, but with your brain.

I'll be thinking about you man. Hate the thought of losing a fellow RCFer. You matter a lot around these parts.

I'll be here to talk to if you ever need someone.
 

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@Sir'Dom Pointer Things can and will get better. You need to be alive for that to happen. Like @King Stannis demand to be treated at all costs for anything you may be dealing with. Ive had a few people recommend CBD oil for my anxiety & lack of sleep. Which in turn could help with my overall mood. Look into it. Even if you are piecing small treatments together to help your overall mood; its a solution.

I personally am going through a bit of stuff on my end. Small things are adding up and its taking a toll. Nothing severe, but mentally I feel off.

1) My mom was recently diagnosed with brain cancer. I find out what the actual prognosis is this week. I know people have lost parents, but I dont think I am mentally ready to A) hear her prognosis or B) watch her go through hell.

They recently purchased a modular home that I know isnt anything fancy, but my mom hasn't been this happy in the last 10 years. Prior they made a sacrifice to take care of my grandparents in their shit house in a ghetto ass neighborhood.

Now if my mom is terminal, which I have a bad feeling she is, I will likely need to move my father out or in with me. By himself, he cannot afford the place.

2) I hate my company & potentially my field. I am in sales for a consumer products company. Its remote, it pays me the most I have ever earned & I still am unhappy. Im pretty decent at what I do, but the travel is taking a toll on my this year. It could be because I have a child now, but I just dont want to travel as much. I feel like I am missing things. If my company would get its head out of its ass; I feel like progress would be made and I would have the revenue to help me in areas that I was promised.

It has me questioning, is it time to change careers? Will I be able to find something that truly makes me happy? Jumping to a new career is scary, not to mention I doubt I will be able to make anything near what I am making. With the kid, and finally being almost done with student loans, is it a good time to find something new?

3) Our newborn just stresses us out. No sleep. We're arguing. Its just not us. I know its an adjustment and we will get through it, but its just tough right now.
 
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Thank you Lee. Means alot.

I dunno. My life was a mess before it evolved into this shit. I have very little hope. I wish I at least had a good family to help me.



What do you have if I may ask?

My physical pain is almost unbearable, but they stopped my pain medication because my liver has become an issue for some reason.
Sorry for not getting back sooner. Notifications for this thread seem to be glitchy.

I actually have two issues. And if these symptoms look familiar, please speak up.

1) I have spinal stenosis for which I had cervical spinal discectomy. This disease is a narrowing of the spinal canal that can be due to a number of issues. The compression of the spinal cord can result in nerve pain, tingling in extremities as well as complete loss of sensation and all feeling in arms or legs.

However, surgery usually result in good outcomes. After my surgery I regained full control of my Right arm. I have another issue with the Left arm, as a result of another disc collapse, that will be addressed this fall with another surgery.

2) I have Complex Regional Pain Syndrome. It is the most painful condition known to medical science. It occurs as a malfunction of the nervous system in which the brain tricks itself into believing a hand, foot or whatever, has been injured and mimics that pain. Further nerve malfunctions then crop up as a result, usually in a limb, including obscene pain feeling like being on fire, osteoporosis, swelling, redness, feeling super cold or hot to the touch, sensitivity to temperature changes, and skin sloughing.

There is no cure. However, it is normally treatable though there is no uniform treatment. Some respond well to normal pain killers like NSAIDs, some not. There is great promise with, oddly enough, anti-depressant tri-cyclics like gabbapentin, Nortriptyline and pregabelin (Lyrica). Numbing agents can work.

Cannabis, like CBD oil and even straight pot, has helped people. Ketamine has worked in some trials. Opioid pain killers are effective for many. However, due to the political climate of the Opioid Crisis, it can sometimes be difficult to get doctors to Rx it. But, if it works you have to demand that they Rx it because it is inhumane to live in such abject pain. Get an advocate in that case.
 

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You ever fuck around with any psychedelics Sir Dom? LSD, psilocybin mushrooms, etc.

I wouldn't recommend it to just anyone, but keep it in mind if things don't improve.

It's sort of a dry run for death. But at the same time, it can have immense healing powers. It's like turning off the governor on a golf cart to see how fast it can go, but with your brain.

I'll be thinking about you man. Hate the thought of losing a fellow RCFer. You matter a lot around these parts.

I'll be here to talk to if you ever need someone.
This is true. I have read that studies have determined that the above can be beneficial; particularly in the cases of those suffering from PTSD.

@Sir'Dom Pointer Things can and will get better. You need to be alive for that to happen. Like @King Stannis demand to be treated at all costs for anything you may be dealing with. Ive had a few people recommend CBD oil for my anxiety & lack of sleep. Which in turn could help with my overall mood. Look into it. Even if you are piecing small treatments together to help your overall mood; its a solution.

I personally am going through a bit of stuff on my end. Small things are adding up and its taking a toll. Nothing severe, but mentally I feel off.

1) My mom was recently diagnosed with brain cancer. I find out what the actual prognosis is this week. I know people have lost parents, but I dont think I am mentally ready to A) hear her prognosis or B) watch her go through hell.

They recently purchased a modular home that I know isnt anything fancy, but my mom hasn't been this happy in the last 10 years. Prior they made a sacrifice to take care of my grandparents in their shit house in a ghetto ass neighborhood.

Now if my mom is terminal, which I have a bad feeling she is, I will likely need to move my father out or in with me. By himself, he cannot afford the place.

2) I hate my company & potentially my field. I am in sales for a consumer products company. Its remote, it pays me the most I have ever earned & I still am unhappy. Im pretty decent at what I do, but the travel is taking a toll on my this year. It could be because I have a child now, but I just dont want to travel as much. I feel like I am missing things. If my company would get its head out of its ass; I feel like progress would be made and I would have the revenue to help me in areas that I was promised.

It has me questioning, is it time to change careers? Will I be able to find something that truly makes me happy? Jumping to a new career is scary, not to mention I doubt I will be able to make anything near what I am making. With the kid, and finally being almost done with student loans, is it a good time to find something new?

3) Our newborn just stresses us out. No sleep. We're arguing. Its just not us. I know its an adjustment and we will get through it, but its just tough right now.
If you would like to talk about a career change, I am happy to listen. I have done the same.
 

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Doing everything I can to keep rumination away. Taking seroquel at night to sleep and hydroxizine during the day. Keeping myself busy. Feeding softball addiction. Can't wait for this to be over.
 

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I've got dozens of acquaintances and none of them can I really go to if I'm feeling like shit. My body is falling apart from so much softball but I have to play it because it's the only thing thag keeps my head off of the breakup. And I'm stuck playing with the guy she probably hooked up with like 10 hours a week. Idiot. I am sick of comparing myself to him.

That relationship was so fucking good for like a month and all that's left is how I fucked up on repeat. Bed is empty. Life is gray. I miss it. Goddamn was that exciting.

. I'm getting fat because I can't stop drinking and eating bc I play so much. I'm sick of thinking about the breakup but because I don't have the truth, I can't stop trying to figure it out.

I'm so worn out it's making me play worse. I'm on the fringe of getting invited to good teams and blowing plays immediately gets yiu uninvited.

All the people I play with are getting sick of me. I get too pissed when they do dumb shit. I care too much about the score and I don't let it be fun.

I'm not fun right now. I've always been the charismatic one in the room. I'm just not now.

I've taken 400mg of seroquel and I am wide the fuck awake. I need a good night's sleep if I want to obsess over negative shit all day tomorrow
 

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So a little update;

I have been diagnosed with a rare connective tissue disorder called "Ehlers Danlos Syndrome".

It affects your connective tissue as in tendons, ligaments, your skin, your internal organs. It is progressive some what(because your tendons/ligaments will continue to detonate and stretch over time) and it basically causes your tendons,ligaments to be too stretchy and not do their job of stabilising your joints, and so they tear and instead your muscles have to do all the work. It is in the hyper mobility spectrum disorder, but i'm no longer hyper mobile...i'm stiff as a rock. My fingers are bendy, my knee subluxates, my hip too and basically every joint...but I'm stiff because the muscles have to stabilise everything.

It is so confusing because it involved so many bodily functions. Not only that, but there is a big neurological component in it. Why? for a few reasons:

  • My vertebras are hyper mobile so it causes nerve compression through dynamic movement and bad posture.
  • Because of the lack of stability I have ridiculous amount of trigger points that compress on adjacent structures.
  • I don't fucking know.
Also there is never-ending tendonitis. Injuries apparently don't fucking heal.

It involves sleep...apparently I have sleep apnea because my airway spasms during the night.

It involved your stomach, so I don't absorb nutrients too well.

And you lose tons of muscle and strength through disuse because of repetitive injuries. And when you try to strengthen your body it feels impossible.

I bought nordic poles to help me walk better because my legs can not hold my weight anymore. I have to get stronger. My injuries affect both sides all the time. My new and 'annoying one is the achilles. It fucks up with my walking.

There is constant dizziness, vertigo, headache that surrounds me and friggin jaw dysfunction and constant facial muscle/nerve pain. There is a lot more, but it does not matter.

Anyways, I was hospitalised for a month in rehab and I decided to ask to be released. They didn't know how to deal with my problems and felt like they made my lower body worse. I kinda regret this decision because I have no idea what to do next as i'm alone and need to find healthcare professionals to help me.

I need 3-4 times a week physio and hydro. It is costly and I'm not mobile right now.

I'm looking for an alternative...tryign to find a different hospital to be hospitalised in perhaps, or maybe a day rehab where you come in the morning and go in the afternoon. The issue is that it is very hard for me to do.

Argh, I feel overwhelmed and I have no strength to handle it. Although the hospital may not be the best option for someone who can take care of himself?
 

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